well, my very last wk b4 my holiday ends..

thru one of the phone conversation i haf w chaochung, i suddenly had a tot of gg back to jvs..

i called up and true enuff, they took me in for the wk as one of their staff is away for course.

taught the students but this time round less story sharing session le..

my voice has yet to recover due to the aftermath of last wk's camp..

den physically very draining too as the medicine quite drowsy..

 

well, it has been a tough wk for me..

a wk of decision making.

yes, i made the decision and not many pple will agree w me including my closed ones

but i've decided to stay focus and give up my opportunity at 海蝶.

Yes, its final.

Well, if its really His will, He will open another door for me.

1st it was 才华 and now 海蝶. Gave both away but i truly believe that when i sow in tears, i'll reap in joy.

Make every single of my sacrifice worth it ya?

 

My focus for the mth of Jul is really on the CG. Now with pru and start of school + my 4 students tt i give tuition, the burdens gg to be heavier but well,

"God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever"

 

Without regrets,

i got a call today.

from 海蝶

got gd news and bad news..

 

Gd: I got shortlisted to the course. Will be personally taught by 许环良老师 and 梁导

among 100 over candidates, they choose total of 80 men and women.

quite honored and privilege la..

if i'm favored during the course, i'll stand to go overseas to develop and sign a 1 yr contract.

 

Bad: The course is on every Sun 10-1pm

 

Well, now is the time to decide... culture mandate that comes w a price to pay...

 

Fast & prayer...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Getting all ready for our zone's 1st ever youth camp - "INSPIRE"

tmr will be our Day 1 all the way till Fri.

Will have lots of games and activities to ground the youths to be a leader of tmr

 

Will be helping out in the camp and its gonna be so exciting..

1st time can get to be w the zone on a mega scale activity like this.

 

So excited..

haha..

 

will share more when i'm back man!!!

gotta really pray n pray tt it will be a success n the youths of tis generation will be INSPIRED!

 

tata

wait for my gd reports ya?

well, started the 1st day of the wk busy..

had my M5 test tis mrng at Suntec.

Din bring my IC so had some difficulties w the admin.

Wasn't confident at all to be frank i just smoke thru..

and the passing mark is like 70%! phew.. if i really pass, it is really GOD!

well, will do better the next time..

 

had back to back tuitions.. cleared every thing..all 4 students..

by the time i teach ros i'm like want to "die" already..

was kinda dozing off but cannot.. muz haf excellence! cannot "short" change her man!

hahaa..just joking.. no punns intended..

 

well, started my 1st M9 tut right after tt in the nite..

i was complaining about this new job for the past wk and perhaps tt explains y i'm so "not ready" and negative..

so i chose to renew my mind today to go there ready for the tutorial.

one thing i really learnt today is tt as long as u're unsettled, u can never be productive..

w ur mind gg like a whirlwind, nth can be absorbed..

ONLY when u've make up ur mind, stick to it..

den only u'll have to innate drive to want to learn..

today's tut was productive and i'm kinda njoying it slowly..

looking fwd to learn more..

despite this new industry is totally new, i'm not gg limit myself but give it a shot!

who noes...it may be my calling n i mite make it big one day!

jiayou win..

 

keep on keeping on,

last wk has been pretty tough for me..

struggling w many inner thoughts..

no worries.. not those negative thoughts..

jus gg thru another new chpt of my life where its time to settle down and think for my future

on wad i'm really gg to do as a living..

Well, i guess that's part and parcel of entering into adulthood.

the anxiety and stress on how to put food on the table, especially if i'm the only man at home.

 

well, but praise God that I have lots of frens that were there to encourage and pull me thru..

u guys nv failed to cheer me up and brighten my life and I thank God for all of you!!!

 

Well.. at least i ended my week on a high note..

on sat, went to sentosa w my cg..had a great time of outing and it was really fun*photos to come in when my mbr send me

after tt went to Breeks at Changi Airport to celebrate karen's bdae..

though i was low on cash but still manage to bless her and we had fun!

she got a nice guess wallet, a makeup kit and a nice watch!

i'm hope she like it and it was really fun to be with this subzone..

though i'm like the "only" existing guy there but i really learnt a lot from them.. looking fwd for more..

 

on sun, went to fellowship w Char Lun!!!

i MISS her to the max man..

haven't been seeing her for a looonnnng time, way b4 my emerge.

But it was truly a great time.

Indeed a women of God.. she taught us so much and her captivating inspirations that are oways so real and true..

suzy sharon and i were blessed..

we went to this nice bar "oosh" at demsey rd to chill out..

pretty nice env..hehe, next time can bring my date there..

really had fun..

well, thank God that He is oways the author and finisher for our week!

 

Moving on,

 

by no chronological order:

 

1. Passion

2. Money

3. Vacation

4. Joy(Peace)

5. Multiplication(breakthru in growth)

6. CGL

7. Quality friends

9. Good Job

10.Gf? (lol..)

 

well, i'm "recovering" with the help of wonderful frens.

though life's kinda stress for me now with another major turning point, but everything's alright for the moment.

guess i'll pull thru this as time passes..

 

my results are out.

*phew... i pass all. praise God tt my final killer paper did not go to the gallows but i pass it.

now i can go for my youth camp in peace =)

 

Today went out w michelle, fajin and na for a gd fellowship.

went for meals and catch up. Michelle's really a cool person to catch up with man!

So sharp in the spirit and indeed a "love guru"

she gives me many gd advice on relationship matters and it really open up my eyes on this issue.

tt's cool man..

hhaa.. looking fwd for my first one! its gonna be a blessed one from GOD!

 

well...fri's a fun day. planning to get on a "getaway" trip w na maybe to thailand or wad after my youth camp..

need to catch a breather and its healthy i feel..

still planning now..

hehe..

 

well, tis sat go sentosa le..

can oso let down my hair and relax.

 

reaching the end of holidays soon le. looking fwd for more excitement in days to come!

 

=),

EDWIN!!!! Argh..

I want to whine... whine ... whine...

:(

feeling a bit mood swingy now..

listening to some music..

haven't been feeling like tt for a long time le..

frustrated.. sad.. disappointed.. tired.. etc..

no worries la, i'm fine =) still alright..

just feel like fa xie fa xie a bit..

 

gonna reach a new chapter of my new life..

new probs..new stress.. new job..

was still thinking how to manage sch a few mth's ago..

but i still blief tt God is gd.. He will supply everything tt i nid..

man!!!! i want peace now!!!

 

guess i'll be fine, soon

man.. i was at the National Museum today..

my mum brought all my younger cousins for a dim sum trip n den went there for a "study trip"

kinda cool.. learnt lots of things der..

actually nth much to blog today la..

just bo liao come here n whine..

hmm...

oh ya.. i'm on tv today! haha...Ch U "i cook 4 u"

so farni to see myself on screen. lots of msn n sms came as curious bypassers ask me questions..

but ok la.. its over..life goes on..

nv want to be engaged in any kind of fame..

wun allow pride to rule in my life..

 

man, i cant blief tt i'm actually going for a course in Pru..

but if tt's where God really leads me to, i'll do it..

gotta haf a breakthru in this poverty mindset..

i really wonder wat my life is gg to be in the next 5 yrs..

pretty confused but i guess He'll nv shortchange me..

He'll send gd leaders to give me gd advice.

Busy busy busy... was jus telling cindy tt i'm gonna be so many things.. Ft student, pt tutor, guitarteacher...blah blah blah..

really nid His grace and mercy.

if der's one thing i caught from lao ban n da lao ban, is that i nid to have FAITH in Him.

 

Forsaking All I Trust Him,

wow.. today's one of the most rushing days ever..

many progs packed back to back..

 

1st up:

Gotta a chance to finally play for a funeral. Pst Yong led the cremation and Ian was the interpreter. But of cuz it is never a joyous occasion. One of our ldrs, Jason's mum went home to join the Lord. Played at the AMK wake and then Mandai crematorium.. Sang many old songs.. Amazing grace, emmanuel, he is lord..

some of the elder relatives really cried buckets. But praise God that Jason is really strong and bold..

Take care dude..

 

2nd up: Rush to Prudential for my interview..

was suppose to meet Faji at 1.30pm for my interview but thinking of my grp outing, i pushed it to 1pm. Den the cremation ended late n i have to rush.. so gan chiong n i alighted at raffles instead of tj pg. haf to retake a train n i was so late.. reached close to 2pm..interviewed by Fj and Nicholas..da lao ban of NGO(pru). He's really a gd advisor that speaks like a humbled man and give wise advice. looking fwd to work for u..

 

3rd up: Rush down to suntec.. for my (ex) grp A outing..

was suppose to mit dem at 2.15pm for movies at 3.15pm. In the end i reach at 3.30pm only. Watched Men in White.. YUCKS! Pls dun watch.. its the lousiest film EVER! *ka...pui! (lol.. k la.. no nid so mean). went to fellowship w my grp n send zx off to ns. went MS HK Cafe an B&J at Raffles City. Really had fun man! Ex la.. but got voucher.. hehe...free! well, grp A.. jiayou wor.. time to do great things for the Lord! New grp A, WELCOME!

 

4th up: Rush to JW.. was supposed to turn up for PM but missed it totally..

sorry.. shldn't have done the right thing at the wrong time.. but aniwae had a gd mtg..

plan for our "inspire" youth camp so do check it out ya? 20-22Jun CSC Changi Chalet!

 

tt's all for my busy day..*yawns..

gotta go slp le..

 

*Father God, bless the pple ard me and I pray for love among my new grp! Pray for the frds I have that is always so patient n loving towrds me! Thank God for pple like Sharon, Cindy and Naresh for oways being der! Bless Sun, China, Pst Zhuang and all the ldrs!!! Amen!

Got invited back to Chinese Church Cg(CC40) again today as a guest.

They wanted to interview me after winning last wk's competition..

Yan Fei wrote 2 beautiful songs (1 fast beat, the other slow)and they're really VERY GOOD!

We had a duet and bless the pple..

Abt 30 over pple.. most of them new faces. Some new frens while the rest other new batch of SOT students..

This was the grp that i helped them play for almost the entire last yr when i was still in NS and i brought my mum to it!

She's now an active mbr in this grp(PTL) n they're all like my family... they did the banners n cheered wildly for me..

But aniwae...

 

Did an interview style testimony w Eva. Shared about my past. How God transformed a low-self esteem, purposeless young man w many failures in life to be a Man of destiny in CHC and can tell that the ppl are really very touched. Was then asked to sing *THIS SONG(on my blog) and really couldn't carry on man.. first time public performance i broke down and cry..

the presence of God was really ministering and strong n the hearts of the pple were touched!

Thks Yanfei... think this song truly describes how i feel!

its the best original song i've sang so far!

 

After tt, had a great time of word sharing and i sang my own composed song "Make us one"

Cg was gd.. mbrs responded and all Glory belong to Him!!!!

 

Thankiew Jesus!
Xie xie ni mei you fang shou

Emerge's over..

had a great time!!!

 

though Emerge's not new to me, but its has definitely spur me up n made me learn "new" things..

 

yes, i got crowned the mr manhunt for emerge 2007 by God's grace and its definitely smthing new n exciting..

but w "great" fame comes greater responsibility.

gotta be a role-model to the youths out der.

nid to watch how i speak, behave and dress in the public.

of cuz the church chose me bcuz of my charisma etc n i can just be myself not having to "fake" wad i'm not..

but still, i nid to put in additional effort. i really hope wad i did can inspire the pple ard me.

pst once mentioned tt "the power to define is the power to validate"

 

wad i've learnt in this emerge is that i really need to renew my passion to start to dream big dreams for God again.

I used to dream the impossible. but as time pass, i begin to settle for the mediocre.

indeed, God can use someone like Sun to make an impact in China; Wah you to impact Indonesia; n Elim to bless China(wow..it was a privilege to sit beside her man.. so inspiring)

Now that God has given me this trumpet, I really wanna dream big dreams for Him n go into my calling to impact the youths!

 

Another lesson is really to have greater hunger for God. Thru the entire event, i've been reminded by God to keep on being hungry for Him. Mat 5:6

"Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, For they shall be filled."

 

 

Its over...

Praise God for everything.

yes, i won the emerge manhunt champion 2007

 

It was definitely a humbling experience for me to be receiving this award in front of the entire church to represent the men of CHC!

haahaa..great privilege comes w great responsibility!

but truly everyone is a winner...
from the 20 contestants, organizers, trainers, hosts, judges, makeup artist, stage hands and even the audiences!!!

None of this could be possible without every single one of them in the equation!

n reserving the best for the last - HIM!

All Glory belong to Him only.

 

Its finally over..

from the catwalks, tense Q&A, smiling infront of so many pple.

its like WOW! really thank God for the composure to answer all questions naturally and wisely!!!

great learning experience and its cool!

 

Special thanks:

to my ldrs for being there to encourage me and stir me up to jian fei!

the trainers..Nanz, JJ, Belinda and bf for believing in me..

my cg mbrs for ur cheer n support..

my mum and company for all the banners and support too..

my dearest frds for oways being there to support me when i feel like giving up!

THANKS!!!

 

n now.. time to really emerge for Christ!!!