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May 30 Xams!Blogging LIVE from sim. Its e exams wk.. While youths are having their enjoyable outing at Mac, Linh n i are scratching our heads discussing e MPO concepts. But its ok.. 2 more days n i'm done! The atmosphere is tense here.. 3 semesters, one GRAND HALL n all stream in for their paper.. Back to e exam stress days 2 years back where i flung my As. If u ask me if i'm afraid, paranoid, fearful etc.. Yes. But not so great. I tell myself tt i surrender all to e Lord n He's gonna give me strength! Gg in for my english paper le! May 27 Be a fighter!Day's reflection..
The heart of the matter is the matter of the heart.
How hungry are you to fight for what you want? Just like the women with the issue of blood. If you are hungry for a breakthru, you will by all means push yourself until you get it. You will have a "never quit" mentality! You will never understand how a hungry man feels until you are in a hungry man's shoes! You could have all the "food"(resources, guidance, advice) and never ever cherish them. But a hungry man will be eyeing on these food, waiting for every chance to pounce and devour them! How ironic!
A hungry man has MOTIVATION.
What is motivation?
(accrdg to my MPO revision today)
Motivation is the WILLINGNESS of self to exert a particular level of EFFORT(INTENSITY), for a certain amount of TIME(PERSISTENCE), toward a particular GOAL(DIRECTION) 4 factors: WILLINGNESS, EFFORT, PERSISTENCE, GOAL
Motivation cannot be forced upon. Only if you are hungry, then you will want to consume it. I can never force a person by stuffing "food" into his/her mouth w/o the person's co-operation. It comes from within.
Are you hungry? What is your attitude today? A discipler can never be more hungry than a disciple! That will be absurd!!!!
I had BS with Chao Chung today and we talked about discipleship. It is the "SUBMISSION"(attitude) and then the "OBEDIENCE"(action). Both gotta work hand in hand in order for you to be a disciple and most impt of all, you need to be TEACHABLE!!!
Never be complacent with a little success that you have because a hungry man will not go for the "just enough" but the "more than enough".
Frds, whatever situation you're going thru today, be it studies, family, relationship, friendship, finance, self-esteem, breakthru, habits, work.. you can apply this theory into all areas! The bottom line is that no one can help you if you are not willing to help yourself. You are a master of your own life! so no point be in a state of self-pity! Stand up strong and be a figher! Faith is an action, faith is for the NOW!
PS: Do feedback to me if you've got any comments on this entry ya? This post is directed to some of my friends to serve as a wake up call upon your life. You've got 1 life! Live it well!!!
With
 ,What is your calling?I've been meditating on this message for this week.
This is story of encounters that great men had w God.
Abram - The Bible call him the man of great faith, father of many nations. He was called by God, Gen 12:1-3
1 Now the Lord had said to Abram: "Get out of your country, From your family And from your father's house, To a land that I will show you. 2 I will make you a great nation; I will bless you And make your name great; And you shall be a blessing. 3 I will bless those who bless you, And I will curse him who curses you; And in you all the families of the earth shall be blessed." That was God's calling for him and he had been tested of his faith with sarah to trust God with Issac. And once again, he was put to a test by sacrificing Issac. Abram was named Abraham by God.
Moses - Prince of Egypt however was sent by God to deliver the Israelites out of Egypt from slavery into the desert where they solely depend on God for supply. Known for his "splitting of the Red Sea" and turning his staff into a "snake" to challenge Pharoh. And God called him while he was in the desert, Exo 3:2-4
2 And the Angel of the Lord appeared to him in a flame of fire from the midst of a bush. So he looked, and behold, the bush was burning with fire, but the bush was not consumed. 3 Then Moses said, "I will now turn aside and see this great sight, why the bush does not burn." 4 So when the Lord saw that he turned aside to look, God called to him from the midst of the bush and said, "Moses, Moses!" And he said, "Here I am."
That encounter changed his life. He was notably a friend of God and he saw God face to face and delivered the 10 commandments to men. Moses was named Israel by God
Simon - Jesus first met him while he was toiling all night but caught nothing at the river. Jesus called out to him and said the most impt 2 words to him, Mt 4:18-19
Saul - Anti-chirst... hated the gospel and went about persecuting the gospel. But God spoke to him on the road of damascus, Acts 9:3-5 3 As he journeyed he came near Damascus, and suddenly a light shone around him from heaven. 4 Then he fell to the ground, and heard a voice saying to him, "Saul, Saul, why are you persecuting Me?" 5 And he said, "Who are You, Lord?" Then the Lord said, "I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting. It is hard for you to kick against the goads." After his encounter, he turned from his wicked ways and had a Holy Spirit revival. He spoke in tongues more than anyone. He was a notable apostle and suffered many persecutions for God. Jailed, stoned, ship-wrecked, whipped, you name it.. he has been through all but still a happy servant of God. Saul was named Paul by God.
Today, wad's your encounter with God? What did God spoke to you? What has God called you to do? One touch from heaven will change your destiny completely. Therefore, do continue to be hungry and press on to Him ya?
I hope you're blessed by this personal Bible study of mine. May 25 wat a privilegetoday i had an opportunity of a life time to play on stage!
it was like MAN!
Was asked to play for POS cg at Expo today cuz they're having their preview tonight and the church's organizing a special session for them. Eric called me up to ask if i can play.. he's farni la.. he called me while i was slping n he say, "hey, u wanna be bro poh?" i was like "huh!!!" hehe..
but in the end, praise God!
Darren lead the P&W, we sang "Great is our God" and "Jesus" on main stage. Close to 500 pple was present. It was kinda nervous in the beginning but i kept praying that i will not get nervous and ask God for His strength to gimme a big capacity. I also helped in doing back-up and it was good. Though the youths didn't sing too loudly but the presence of God was evident. Pst Zhuang preached and it was really a great time.
Well, i would say that the trip frm JE to Expo was well worth while! Experience of a life time man!
But more than jus being able to play on stage, it is really God's grace that He gave me this talent to serve His pple. Still a long way more to go and I believe God for greater breakthru!!!!
My dream: to one day be able to lead God's congregation like Sidney, Poh and Delirious?
One Life, One LoveWho am I
That You would know me from the start Set me apart Who am I That You would place eternity Into my heart You have given to me More than this world could give My purpose is found in You One life, I lay at Your altar One love, I have with You Touch me again Fill me as You hold My outstretched hands One word, You know I will follow One heart, broken to You Use me again Your mercies follow me For all my days In Your presence In Your power Holy Spirit, I surrender -Song written for EMERGE by KC njoy =) May 23 its out!!! finally!!!ladies and gentleman,
boys and gals.. unveiling the photos of Edwin's makeover!!!
Its is B-E-A-UTIFUL! "i'm loving it!!!!"
haha...don't get shock wor..
pls pls.. no stealing of photos... its piracy..
shall keep u guys in suspense...
release bit by bit.. -@win ^ ^ Thanks for all the supportA special tribute to all my faithful fans..
Hi friends,
I would like to thank all my loyal fans that have been religiously coming to my blog to read my posts.
I've got feedbacks from some that they're really inspired by my life and I'm glad that I can be a source of inspiriation for all of you out there because of who He is in my life.
Though my blog is rather indifferent from the rest as you cant leave any tags(like in blogspot or other blogs) but I do "see" your footprints and I know your presence =) *sounds spooky ar? lol..
As much as possible, I would love to share my life on this blogs, updating all of you with some recent cool pics (but no stealing pls.. its piracy!)
but sometimes I get quite busy. Do understand that this blog is not an avenue for me to flaunt my life etc but rather to relate to people that are going thru the same problem and thoughts as me and also to keep track of my own personal life. And of course, to a certain degree.. there is an issue of privacy and sensitivity especially regarding religious issues so some of the things shared are rather general or else thoroughly filtered.
I hope that this blog can continue to be a blessing for you who are out there and you may leave a comment by clicking on the "Add a comment" at the bottom of every post and of cuz, I would LOVE to "hear" your testimonies on how you've been blessed =)
it certainly warms my heart to hear from you
I'll continue to share more of my life!
May 21 a year of stardom?Will 2007 be a year of stardom for me?
Why do i say that? Well, I've joined 1 and 2 more potential events that might lead me to fame.
For the month of June, by God's grace, I've got into top 10 emerge manhunt.
It is the 1st time that my church's organizing a beauty paegeant and manhunt event. Not a very big-scale event but it will definitely raise some brows and hopefully it can be an avenue for me to be spotted. The finals will be on 1 Jun(my last paper) Next, my mum wants to enrol me into J Team and Hai die production talent academy. They have a vast variety of talents mainly acting, hosting, dancing, singing. I can do more than half so might stand a chance. Its not a competition but rather an academy. If they like me, i might be offered a contract to join them and stand a chance to act in movies and broadcasted regionally.
Finally, Star Search is round the corner. I've already got supports from directors in Mediacorp to join this contest. This competition has revived and its finally back in the month of July. I'm going for an audition. however.. nothing's comfirm.
really gotta fast and pray..
if by God's grace tt i got short-listed, i need to headache about time mgmt as i'll have school and church to tackle.
hmm.. how?
gotta really consider man.
Went for a makeover shoot today. Its quite a new and spacious place. The boss is very professional and polite. No airs at all and gd rates... Now waiting for him to edit and i'll post the pics online. I like them a lot =)
till den,
May 19 A court case in Floridai got a mail from serene pok today and i think that this article is rather interesting..
enjoy... HAVE YOU HEARD ABOUT THIS COURT CASE?
In Florida, an atheist became incensed over the preparation of Easter and
Passover holidays. He decided to contact his lawyer about the discrimination inflicted on atheists by the constant celebrations afforded to Christians and Jews with all their holidays while atheists had no holiday to celebrate. The case was brought before a wise judge. After listening to the long passionate presentation by the lawyer, the Judge banged his gavel and declared "Case dismissed!" The lawyer immediately stood and objected to the ruling and said, "Your honor, how can you possibly dismiss this case? The Christians have Christmas, Easter and many other observances. Jews have Passover, Yom Kippur and Hanukkah...yet my client and all other atheists have no such holiday!" The judge leaned forward in his chair and simply said, "Obviously your client is too confused to even know about, much less celebrate his own atheists' holiday!" The lawyer pompously said, "Your Honor, we are unaware of any such holiday for atheists. Just when might that holiday be, your Honor?" The judge said, "Well it comes every year on exactly the same date---April 1st! Since our calendar sets April 1st as 'April Fools Day,' consider that Psalm 14:1, Psalm 53 states, 'The fool says in his heart, there is no God.' Thus, in my opinion, if your client says there is no God, then by scripture he is a fool, thus April 1st is his holiday! Get it?" PRAY THAT SOME DAY OUR COURTS WILL BE FULL OF THESE KIND OF JUDGES......
MAYBE THEN, WE CAN PUT GOD BACK WHERE HE BELONGS --- I N EVERYTHING WE DO... Way to go, Judge! Have A Wonderful Day! May 16 fiddleheard of this phrase..?
"as fit as a fiddle"
well, if u're wondering, i'm still VERY active w my boot camp programme.
haf been running, doing static exercises, dieting blahblahblah..
My daily routine will be as such..
i'll wake up and pop 2 detox pills, 2 supplement pills, 1 flu tablet(if i'm having a "bad-nose" day)
and i'll head to school. no breakfast..
i'll fast 12/24 alternate days. which means literally fasting everyday. But sometimes i'll give myself a break and enjoy with some food.
during my night, i'll change into my "sexy" shorts and slip on my sneakers and go for a nite jog.
if its a relax day, i'll jog after 930pm. if its a long day, it won't be surprise to see me on the roads after 1am.
But i would really wanna commend chaochung. He's the man. Not very fit but is always available to go nite runs w me covering long distances. really admire his raw determination. once in a while, linh or faji will join me on seperate occasions. But it is all these pple that keep me motivated to run in the nite. Which siao guy will go sweat in his bare body late in the nite and sacrifice his slp, food, energy.
*salutes to all these heroes of faith...
i'll end the day w prayers and 2 detox pills, 1 supplement pill and 2 puffs of nasal spray.
Log on to msn, play a bit of warcraft and say gd nite to my frens =)
Exciting ar?
hee...u bet!
waiting for emerge man..!
still wondering if i'll cont to be so discipline after tt a not..
well, we will wait and see..
till den...
May 14 i'm blessed!well well well...
today was another wonderful dae..
rmb tt i went for blood donation yest?
haha..to me, its a BIG step of crossing over and i felt like a CHAMPION man!
self-pride..
n guess wad? within the next 24 hrs... i got blessed!!!
haha..
i can say tt tis is the BIGGEST BLESSING I'VE RECEIVED IN MY LIFE so far..
went to meet my mum at taka after school..
had to shop for my manhunt suite for the finals...
mum brought me to Zara to choose my clothings..
was quite reluctant cuz din wan her to spend so much on me..
had already spent hundreds on my hair n swim wear...
so went to look look see see n in the end, i got a HUGE harvest man..
bougt 1 set of suite(blazer n pants), one white long-sleeved shirt, a pair of leather shoes.
n it amounted to more den 1/2K! haha...
well, wad do u haf to say?
ya.. u can call it lucky if u wan to..
or say tt i'm pampered or a mummy's boy..
wateva u wanna say man..
BUT, to me.. its God's reward for my blood!!!! hahaha..
THANKIEW and AMEN!!!
Indeed, "when u sow in tears, u'll reap w joy" and God has once again proven Himself!
All glory to Him!
 May 13 brave win faces his biggest fearafter countless of years of resistance, i've finally gave in..
i went to gek poh ville cc to donate blood for the very first time of my life!
why is it so special?
because those who know me well will know that i'm freaking scared of NEEDLES!
yeah.. big as i may seem on the outside, but i have my frail side too..
just some history:
i fainted when i went thru my BCG jab during my Pri school days.. still rmbed how embarass it was..
n den..back in NS, haf to go thru blood sampling too and i'll oways turn pale and weak after a minor jab..
i rmbed that once i have to do IV(drip) and the inexperience NSF medic poke me thrice and i gave him a piece of my mind!
but after so many bad experiences, i was somehow convicted to donate my blood this time.
to me, its really boldness and courage la..cuz i'm not a very daring person de..
cindy koh actually registered my name for me during one of our zone mtgs and she encouraged me to donate, but bcuz of easter drama, i din go but i went today. *tks cindy for ur constant encouragement..
and now.. the details..
it was a special sun, mother's day as well..
mum was supposed to go water bap n blood don w me but in the end due to unforseen circum, h20 bap was postpone to next wk.
n she was late for blood don n wasn't allowed to donate. she got kinda upset but went out for dinner at por por's place and it was much better.
from my cg, originally karen cho and me.
call karen tay to go w me but she nv reply =(
haahaa..but later persuaded sharon to go w me.. her last donation was omost 5-6 yrs ago n she's quite scared of pain too de..
linh joined us to "motivate" sharon n tgt w char wan, we drove down to gek poh tgt.
lots of pple.. saw lynn, wendy, joyce, kel guo, cin png, jairus(all the WYZ ldrs).. it was quite happening actually.
queued up to scan ic, fill up some form n wait to be checked. time past v fast for me despite the long queue but well.. i was on the donation "bed" in a blink of an eye. Lynn was sitting right beside me.. We kept encouraging one another as we're both first timers.. she kept calling me uncle la!!! jus bcuz she's 3 yrs younger den me! too much man..
but aniwae, the process of inserting the needle n drawing out of blood was kinda painless after the anaethestic n it din hurt much. i was closing my eyes most of the time. body kinda numb.. like no blood like tt..
but it was ok after everything..
thinking tt i was fine, i went out to tok to my mum etc, trying to get the pple to allow her to donate blood as the organizers close the stations le..
as i walked ard, it hit me! bam! i went giddy.. whole world seems to be spinning.. cant hear properly(like env suddenly on mute mode).. whole body v weak, blurred vision n omost collapse. i quickly paused for awhile n struggled back to my mum n sat down. i told her tt i was feeling weak n she went to get me a drink.. instead, a volunteer came w a bed. he ask me to lay on it n wheeled me into the center! so paiseh la.. he's like "excuse me, pls make way... get a doc here, quik!". I couldn't care less bout my face cuz i was semi-uncon n my frens say tt i was as pale as a ghost n they got freaked out. after a couple of mins of resting, i regain my consciousness. n was so paiseh la.. everyone was like looking at me, asking if i'm ok. *maluz.. hopefully not much pple saw. (but to think again, now i've blogged publiclly...hmm..argh, jus don't tease me when u see me k? i did a brave thing hor!)
yup..cin png n linh was there. she gave me water to drink n took care of me! i felt like taking the blanket n cover my face la.. haha..
but at the end of the day, we had a gd time la.
i felt a sense of satisfaction n felt gd cuz i save lives!!!
Praise God for blood..
i'm happy.. =)
well.. challenge all u guys out there!
if edwin can, so can u.
May 10 ActingYesterday.. Went to MediaCorp for a shoot. Instead of playing minor roles for e Drama dept, i had an opportunity to cross over to e Variety dept. Did a re-enactment shot of chef Edward at his restaurant located at Clarke Quay- Clinic. He's tall n handsome n his outlet is e most unique i've ever seen. The chairs are all wheel chairs as he preps most of his fd on an op table with surgeon-like lightings. Variety ppl are really polite n friendly, no airs at all n i enjoyed my time w em. Well, they hinted tt Star Search(cai hua) is coming up soon n asked me to give it a shot. Why not? It has oways been my dream to give it a shot to stardom. But well, only when e HS speaks will i move. Alright.. Gonna start class soon. Later having a brand new guit student coming to my place to learn. Hope i can impact another soul =) May 08 Life skillLearnt something today. Realised that i've been pretty analytical in e way i approach things. I having a tendency to analyze things n digest things fast n share my views almost at an instant. Well, to some, it mite b a gd thing since i have e ability to understand thing faster. But it can also b a negative aspect. Really need to "enjoy" e process jus like eating where taste plays a great part in consuming fd. Its an art tt needs to b mastered. Therefore manyatimes, it caused me to b easily impatient with e slightest thing. Gotta b more S in e way i due w problems. Can't always come in a v objective way of "hit & go". I guess, humans do need tt touch n man.. I gotta start enjoying every single opportunity to meet w pple. Edwin, u're blessed w talents n affluence. So use it to b a greater blessing to e pple ard u n leave an imprint in their lives ya? May 04 "Get up on your feet and ..MOVE!!!"Back to boot camp!
Its me against the world!
Naval diver fall in!!!
Hooya!
Well, i've started my disciplined routine.
On a long term fast...
every alternate day 24hr fast and the other a 12hr fast..
no supper.. no food after 9pm..
no soft drinks.. one meal per day(no 2nd serving)
i'm gonna buy my protein soon..
haf been gg out for at least 1/2 hr jogs + static pt everyday..
i'm gonna get my packs b4 jun man!
this sun photo shoot le.. stress.. gotta be topless..
wow.. the gals are really got substance de..
not all super pretty but above average la..
guys mostly young chap and pretty face kind de.. only ard 4 abv 20s.
haha...
chances are 50-50 but hope i'll go far!
well, i'm gonna be disciplined again..
its tough.. yes.. no doubt..but JUST DO IT!
May 02 am i fat?:(
a little disappointed for these past few days..
gd news is tt i got into top 10 emerge manhunt.
bad news is tt the pressure is on..
so many pple pressurizing me to loose weight and they tease me for being fat!
man! am i really that fat?
as compared to the days in ndu, obviously i won't be in such a tip top condition la..
but for now, i've been fasting regularly and eating one meal per day le..
stop all carbonated drinks and go for jogs once in awhile.
i guess its not so enuff.. gotta really work out during tis mth.
this mth is gonna quite busy i guess.
got lotsa photo shoots coming up and also haf to balance w my school schdule.
help me man..
sometimes jus feel like giving up man..y so xin ku? just eay la...! aniwae i love eating de ma..
well, jus hope tt the pple ard me will be more encouraging and say nice words to me bah..
keeping fit,
(photos below taken years back) May 01 Family DayI woke up kinda late.. Thank God for e holidays man.. Need e rest desperately! Have been sleeping quite little for e past 3 days due to funeral n have to b der to keep watch e wake n thank God everything's over. had a great time.. linh brought terence here and we stayed out late at the carnival w na, char n lava to eat.. haha...but it was a fun day..back to school tmr le.. :S
hehe..
till den.. =) |
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