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November 30 transition..:S
i'm going thru a period of tough time now.. imagine more den one change in less den a yr, a bit hard for me to take it and swallow too.. jus as u're adapting to it, u've gotta move on again..
well, maybe its a blessing in disguise bah.. Just like how God asked Abraham to come out of Egypt and follow Him.. I'm now going thru this very tough period of time in my life now(which i don't wanna explain much until its comfirmed)..
Need to make a major decision which will decide on my future on where I'm heading to..
She bu de? yes.. very..
a group that's very dear to me, and a special fren.
This wk i'm pretty agitated.. upset.. disappointed.. angry..
why? i dunno.. maybe bcuz of so many things i haf to face..
the agony and fear tt i'm going to be in a world of strangers..
i'm really sad.. but den i still gotta go thru it gritting my teeth..
at times i cry, i look up and i cant really share much w the pple ard me except her and my other bosses..
i just wish that i don't have to go thru this, but it really isn't much of a choice..
hope once everything's comfirmed, i stay or i go.. things will be much better for me.
right now, i just hope i'll be happier everyday and live my life w the joy of the Lord.
God.. if u're ever there(i noe u are, and u LOVE me), touch me pls! i miss u Holy Spirit..
-*confused win November 25 i've missed the last train?well, it seems that for the past few months, edwin has turned into a very tired, grouchy and stressed edwin.
i would like to apologize for that behaviour for the past few months.
i've stirred up much disatisfaction with the things around me and it caused me to be very complainy and murmuring,
doing things out of the wrong attitude.
Well, as often as it mite seemed that u could catch up on the train and travel to a new level, i've missed it jus in the nick
of time once again. its not the first time for me in my life but i feel tt at the end of the day, it really boils down to the attitude in each one of us. i need to really stay focus and work on to getting up on the next train again. gotta learn how to lead a happier life, njoy the things that i do and to smile more =)
Looking fwd to the next train again..
November 22 tough times don't last but tough men doi would say tis period of transition would be the greatest highlight that ever happened in 2006.
been thru so much.. changes..
but when u're new in smthing, you need to adapt to new environment..
i've been trying my very best to adapt to it but its really making me wonder why..
i've been disappointed and i'm really urgent to nid someone to hear my cries but other den boss, there's no one else
i hope everything will be fine
right now, i jus need to focus on it..
strong.. and be happy in the things i do.. really, or else i'll snap!
hope all things would really work when i'm back to face it again!
November 20 its another hectic wk..tiredz..
was looking fwd to the wk actually..
well, played for tue pm(which was the best) cuz we combined w JS zone.. presence was so strong n we switched off the lights!
wed was the zone's youth pm.. first time seeing them actually..
hmm..was rather dry.. the mbrs weren't initiated enuff, not much time to really pray too.. so it was 2 out of 5 thurs.. manage to catch some rest.. went out to eat w na kim n jin.. last supper b4 he flew off to aust jus yest.
fri.. NICE one.. CC40's big dae at ymca..
first time performed an item for cg.. sung a medley of songs like qing fei de yi, wu ding co-sing w Yan Fei.. tt was the best man! her voice rox!
Well, had a gd experience w Joseph as YF and i were on the keyboard n guit.. not very smooth but it was fun..
sat had cg.. but i feel that it wasn't real der tt kind.. and my cleartone same 4th string snapped! frustrations.. in the end haf to get sharon's guit half way during worship... big boo boo leh... but the presence slowly peaked so it wasn't tt bad... den after tt egg yt zx me went to chev to bowl.. haha.. i so long nv bowl, kns.. serious..
sun..svc.. gd msg on stepping out n crossing over.. and den the outing tt i was looking forward to - Battle of Armageddeon
Its my first time being a game master and oso the first time for me to haf a zone outing.
but den.. tt's the mmostt disappoint event in the wk..! i shall not elaborate.. let's jus say we're new comers and the pple needs to learn how to be more accepting.
ya.. hope next wk will be much betta..
i'm so tiredz le..
gd nitz
November 16 i juz hate it mani just hate it when some things happen in my life..
its ok to feel frustrated i guess since we all do feel..
and its perfectly fine to vent some of my frustrations here since i feel that its a healthy way to do so
so wad are the things tt will make me cross?
Here are some..
Well, for those that saw this blog, maybe these are some life pointers u can learn to treat others better. Don't bother to come and ask me "what happen?", "who are you referring to?" cuz i'm juz saying it in general.. Of cuz due to some incidents that happen in my life. For those that manage to identify yourselves to any of this category, :) there's still hope, its not too late. Be a better fren ya? :) November 13 this wk's highlights..quite interesting wk i would say..
din haf much memories for mon-wed..
thurs-fri was at P.Sudong and P.Senang for mission..
Ex. Seagale..
go there do u/w demo, nth much..
got bitten by quite a numb of sandflies.. *itching..
aniwae, its kangli's bdae tis wk.
din really torture him as its our 1st day of seagale..
sat brought him out for a celebration with a grp of divers - qian(late!), ding, yang, long, tham, ching, jon, ky, bg and myself w bdae boi KL KOH!
went over to bugis for steamboat and we had to seperate tables!
got tis 2pid couple, refusing to swap seats w us, how irritating!
aniwae.. we had a FULL dinner (as usual, my tummy bloated to a horrible size, lol)
went over to bugis jn trying to decide wad's next..
kl went to do crazy things(as usual)
initially jus dare him to get wet and he actually did! went to the fountains to do his usual weird stunts.
however we got him to do it again n tis time round we sang him a bdae song, quite fun really..
and den we haf to buy him clothings of cuz since he's wet(as a bdae gift too)
walked ard b4 finally deciding to go back der to shop..
n the most irritating, irksome thing happened! HORRENDEOUS DISASTROUS customer service.. i shalln't describe it, its gross!
went over to TCC to catch a cup of coffee, yak ard and bought kl a cake. we all had fun!
finally made up to him le.. he's been a gre8 person, a fren, a buddy to me. though he's weird at times, speaks super unclearly, oftenly gets taken advantage of, but he has a kind heart, fun loving person with a great attitude and forever positive abt things. Gotta learn frm him man!
lastly, happy bdae dude!
tis coming wk.. more adventures.. mon- meet up w serene w jin. tue- JO. wed-zone youth pm. thurs-meet na(farewell to aust). fri- cc cg ymca. sat-cg. sun-outing!
haha..wad an exciting life hor?
kl's video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O-FtiEYIbzE November 05 great dae todae, mission accomplishedafter such a loooonnnnng wk, its finally over!
Why? cuz next wed is sharon's bdae man! our big boss frm our cg.
Tt's y, we've planned out a "mission sharon" just 2 wks ago and its finally done..
tis entire wk, haf been the most stressed in my life man..
haf to do grp mtgs, discussion w ldrs on our 1st cg outing proposal, so many conference calls and so little time..
the pressure was so great tt i literally haf to glue myself to my laptop to do so many things.. even haf to go to
the extend to smuggle my lappie into camp to burn midnite oil..
but the effort is all paid off..
A SUCCESS!
today: 040906
MISSION OPS SHARON
Programme: to give her a surprise to celebrate a special bdae for her
Why? cuz we love her and last yr's celebration was a disaster n we ended up getting scolded..
so..learn frm experience!
Plan: gather all the pple, gif her the surprise
Cg video: done by ic zx and team (yt seelan)
Testi: ic jod n lava's testi
Written song: ic me!
Present: ic jod - $80 Heeren vouch
Card n "cake": ic angel - scroll-like card n a jelly "cake"
Pop blessing: ic grp A B C.. everyone!
man.. it was soooo gd! she almost teared..
n so excitingly, its my 3rd official self-written song
sad but nice..
(specially written, dedicated to sharon. for being such an awesome ldr n fren in my life.. tt changes me totally to be a brand new me)
Light up my life
Standing there and no one else care
All alone I feel so cold
Running everywhere, to find meaning in my life
But all I get is nothing once again
The scars of my past they haunt me everyday
I don't want to ever talk 'bout it again
People flee from me, never want to be with me
What kind of life will this be?
But things started to change
When you step into my life
You light up my life
And gave me a will to live
Hold onto me
Gave me purpose destiny
I never want to be apart from you
To do the things I used to do
You're my friend
Oh..
Nice? haha.. she really very touched la..tis is wad she sent to us via sms..
"Dear all, tnx SO much 4 e bdae celebration today.. its REALLY e best i had thus far. Can really feel e efforts u guys put in e whole plan. A BIG tnx, luv ya all!"
"N to my dear grp leaders, a special tnx to u guys.. 4 working so hard 4 e past 10mths, couldnt hv done it w/o u guys. I'm blessed to hv u as part of my family :)"
isn't tis jus so sweet? looking fwd to more exciting adventures w tis cell..
tmr's Arise & Build le.. i'm rdy, to gif my precious..
tnk God i've found a buyer.. hope the deal will be done soon
November 02 QM dutiesWas in camp last wkend doing guard duties. 1st time kena duties.. quite east task but boring..
haha.. hope i wun have to do it again. :X
aniwae.. its gonna a busy wk tis coming wkend..
well, let's hope its gonna be fun ya? |
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